Well, I need a new journal. I'm not sure if this will be interesting, or if I'll be able to express how I feel with the right words (even more true in english lol). So here is what my mind is going throught for monthes.
Since I started photography, I've tried to improve my skills to become a better artist, because photography has taken a very big place in my life beside my vet studies. Each time I face an obstacle, I'm generally in a bad mood for some days, then I stand and tell myself "OK, that's not the right way, and so what ? You can't abandon, go ahead !" But I must admit I am tired to see so many cat/cute animal pictures in my gallery. And everyday, I wonder if it is really photography. Deep inside, I think my answer is "NO... you're not an artist ! You only choose the easiest way to be popular on dA".
Moreover, should I be proud to have popular pictures when I see what is shown sometimes on dA's frontpage ?
I don't know if these thoughts are the reason why I always see that bad look in people's eyes when we talk about my "animal" pictures (my sister thinks I'm really talented, but she would enjoy I produce another style).
I would like so badly to be an incredible wildlife photographer, a fantastic landscape photographer or a genious conceptual photographer... there is still so much work... Work I will do as long as photography will be a passion for me.
I think I just need to go ahead again. Because, I'm the only person who can make me become that photographer I want to be !
Well... I'M SURE that was VERY interesting.
Whaterver I say ; everything I want, I must work for it and there is no need to whine in public. Just to tell you that I'll fight against myself to provide the best I can !
Thanks to all those who liked at least one of my pictures. Thanks to my faithful watchers. I would probably have abandonned my "great artist dream" for a long time without you telling me you like my work...
To resume this journal (surely the best one ever done ! lol), I feel exactly like this (SO KAWAI... hum... but still a good animal shot I hope) !
(I've read on the internet (where I find SO MANY of my pictures without any permission...) a comment laughing about the "fake bokeh" of this shot : THE BOKEH IS REAL !!!... well, sorry for that, but I hate to hear critiques from people who don't know... ^^')